Underneath

The Underneath is the name of the new MS I've been working on. It's nice, happier than the invective sarcasm my work was invested with post-Rachael. These days I look at the problems of the world with less rancor & with a bigger eye towards solutions. Still, an idealist like me is prone to bouts of staggering cynicism. At least I have that black Jewish humor.

The most recent health kick has me mostly vegan, yet I have given into the coffee gods. My creative space & community revolves around the caf.

Romantic intrigues have been odd. Brittney, this cool cute chick that goes to my caf occasionally, & I have kicked it a few times (no, that doesn't mean we've knocked boots). I even went to meet her dad, a musically proficient gay man who lives on Capitol Hill. As much as I dig her vivacious femininity & spunk I think I'd scare her if I espoused some of my radical ideas. Besides she talks me into going & smoking hookas at this Falafel House...

Megan the nice girl whom I did an injustice to when I inadequately wrote about her on this blog was at Hugo House when I randomly poked my head in there recently. My eyes are soft right now. She's pretty damn amazing. I eternally question chemistry tho. Trust, love, sharing, growth these are big words. I don't want someone to commit to me again like Rachael did only to show how flexible the human mind is when it comes to backtracking. Justification performs miracles. Witness nearly a hundred wars world wide & the multitudes of struggles we wage in our own heads.

Music lately Josh Clayton-Felt (http://www.joshclayton.com/intro.html), Ben Harper, Postal Service, Velvet Underground, Spiritualized, & the Flaming Lips. Just finished The Last Temptation of Christ & Stranger in a Strange Land on the same day. My head has been buzzing ever since. Messiah tales are some of my favorites. For a good read here's a brief biopic of St. Francis (http://www.newadvent.org/cathen/06221a.htm). Heinlein disappointed me with the ending right when I was really getting into the book.

My bohemian nature has been evolving lately with my newfound directness, my subtlety is now saying what I mean without doublespeak. I invest what I say with enough intonation & facial expression that the sincerity is disarming & there is little confusion about interpretation. I say what needs to be said, my philosophies built upon the strong premise that people should care about where things come from & where they go, that right action is born from thoughtfulness in the adventure of living intentionally, that we are connected whether we like it or not & that respecting the "other" which is really ourself is not an obligation so much as it is a matter of self-respect.

The third noble truth is by far my favorite. There is a means to ending worldly suffering: the pursuit of ultimate reality. That's a pretty sharp sentence. I still favor Heraclitus over Buddha. (http://www.wsu.edu/~delahoyd/heraclitus.html)

Anywho, gotta go so I can sleep before work & Folklife tomorrow.